Judging where you are in the spiritual life is utter arrogance. Everyone does this in beginning the spiritual life. But, just get over it. The Lord is our spiritual director and we cannot begin to know where He is leading us in all friendship. If we did, it wouldn’t be worth going there, would it? We would already be where we are right now. Not good. Forget about having goals in the spiritual life. You can’t get there from here. He draws us from there.
But, if you’re content with being stuck in reverse, looking to Christ crucified with your self-congratulatory imagination — so that He has no wounds at all, since you have no sin[!], holding Him to be a liar — then, go ahead, make all the goals you want.
But if you want to look upon Him whom we have pierced, and do so with all reality, in solidarity with Him, knowing that He has died for us while we were yet sinners so that we could look to Him in all friendship, then let Him draw you to Himself. Sit there, helping Mary hold Him:
If you’ve noted that you’ve ever sinned, and you label yourself as impossible in regard to holiness, you are then refusing to see how our Lord is drawing you to Himself. Just be a simple child before Him. Let yourself be drawn. He is just so good and kind.
If you’ve pegged someone as never able to advance in the spiritual life because you’ve noted how that person has at least objectively sinned in this way or that, know that you’ve already judged yourself as unworthy to be drawn by our Lord to Himself. He can forgive. Can you? In his grace? Yes, even if your feelings don’t like forgiving this one or that one. Just look to our Lord, who is so good and so kind.